||[Oct. 25th, 2006|01:48 pm]
The Dream Since The Dawn Of Man
Sometimes I don't fully understand why I get treated like shit from Matthew. He wants to talk about me treating him like shit when its the complete oppiste. Like he says im the "victim" To bad I fucking tell it like it is and I don't add shit into the fucking story to make me sound innocent. I seriously wish he would just give it a fucking rest. Then he says "Well Jo and Nichole or Gianni really don't like you. They think your an annoying whiny bitch" So if thats so fucking true then just don't even fucking talk to me anymore. Don't have me as a friend on AIM or anything beacuse Im so sick of this dramatic bullshit. But sometimes i cant help but fall into his eyes. Hes so fucking hot, everytime he sleeps over no one knows but, i rub his penis until i think hes gonna orgasm, it turns me on so fucking bad, and i know that if he knew i was doing it he would kill me because i am a fat bitch. Thats another thing. When I do repeat things that Matthew says such as so and so doesn't give a shit about me he fucking turns it around and acts as if he never fucking said it. Thats fucking annoying as shit.